My family and I are in the midst of a frustrating, angering, confusing time right now. I won't go into details because quite honestly there isn't room, but please pray for us. I have run the gamut of responses to all that has been happening. Faith, Strength, Anger, Accusation, Hope, Confusion, Numbness, Joy, Peace, Fear, and so much more have flowed through me as the circumstances have unfolded. Through it all the deepest pain in me is that I just don't understand what God is doing or why. If I knew what I was buying with this suffering It would be easier to endure.

Then I remember - the words of Paul, "I consider that this present suffering is not worth comparing to the Glory that will be revealed in me"
- the words of Peter, "In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed."
- the words of Jesus, "blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted", "he who would save his life must lose it"
and so many more.
The truth IS, that for the endless ages to come in Heaven my heart will be filled with gratitude for the Hell I experience on earth. All of the gold I buy today will be the treasure I offer before His throne as a testimony of His grace.

Some day I will say, "Your ways are just and true!"
I believe it